Different emotions recording

People say that I get too emotional at times. They say I am very sensitive. Even the smallest of things can affect Kaneesha.

My emotions often vary from time to time, like any other person. Sometimes I experience the happiest of moments and sometime I feel heavy-hearted. I never feel extremely happy and then extremely sad. That is the reason why I fail to agree completely with Plutchik’s theory that every emotion has an opposite emotion. I believe that there is a scale between all emotions. No one, according to me, can be happy at one moment and then suddenly sad. There are different levels of happiness and sadness.

A few days ago I had my performance. It was the Antwerp Indians Talent Show. I was going to be hosting the show. I realised that it was a highly tensing moment for me, when the authorities asked me to take the floor. I knew that I had rehearsed my speech and was prepared, but somehow felt very numb when I got to the stage’s wings. While coming in front of the audience, I suddenly had my adrenaline pumping. I was nervous. Extremely nervous, probably. I feel that because of this nervousness, I felt my legs were shivering slightly when I was on the stage. This made me think later that if my emotional experience led to a physical change, it means that I agree with Canon-Bard theory of emotions, which states that the physical response occurs due to an emotional move. However, I was put to test. My friends and I were casually mimicking each other. One of them got really upset and slapped me and I was extremely hurt by that action. Normally, we would not do that but that action really had me hurt – anger and sadness. Hence, at that point I felt that I was obviously supporting the James-Lange theory which states that because of a physical reaction you experience an emotional change.  I failed to draw a conclusion to which theory to support. I have experience both the theories and so it cannot be said that one is right and the other is wrong. If there is no surity in emotions, how can there be a surity in the theories of emotion.

I often feel unsure about how I am feeling. Sometimes I am experiencing two or three emotions together. For example, while talking to one of my new friends I feel happy and at the same time have this fear of losing. There is also a sort of insecurity of where our friendship may lead up to, every time I talk with him. It is very difficult at such times to think in one straight direction. I am always fighting between all these emotions. To add the icing on the top, my friends say that the guy likes me and even I like him, but I am unable to realise that fact. This connects back to my previous journal, where I said that people try and make you think of things you have not thought about. I am afraid that I might lose my power of thinking rationally that such an infatuation is not possible and start thinking more emotionally like Damasio suggests.

Other times where I face the same (many emotions) problems is during a family argument. At first, I try and maintain my composure but sometimes I cannot handle the anger and burst out either crying or shouting. Inside me I am cursing myself and am disgusted towards myself for speaking up but at the same time I feel awed that I can actually argue pretty well which I normally fail to do. There is a part of me that says that it is fine and normal to argue for your point to seem correct which I see rationally, but the other emotional side says that you are fighting with your family which is not respectful and disgusting. Sometimes because of this confusion I start crying and get mentally disturbed. I blame it on my teenagehood to cover up; maybe it is that and maybe it is me not knowing what to do in certain situations making me more vulnerable. After all these events, whether it is a fight with friends or family I start having terrible headaches – the physical effect on my emotional state. The headaches are always nightmares because of the pressure build up. I also tend to lose my concentration power and start listening to sad and depressing songs.

I always feel that my emotions decide the kind of music I hear. Or it maybe the other way around at other times. For example, I might listen to a specific song and feel the way the song is. If the song is catchy, can be danced to, I get into that mood of happiness and ecstasy. However, if it is some sad song then I feel that pain and my mood changes to a more calmer and quieter one. Similarly, if I have had a hard day at school and hence a headache, I might take its pressure out in the form of arguments.

Ways of Knowing - Emotion

Robert Ebert said, 'your intellect may be confused, but your emotions will never lie to you.' But can emotions mislead us? And can other people help us to recognize emotions that we didn't realize we had?

Emotions come freely to us. They are our feelings and the reason of expression. If we are happy about something, it is our emotions, and we reflect this in different ways. Similarly, if we are hurt, then sadness becomes our emotion, and we reflect plain stress or it comes out in the form of tears.

Many times we need to make decisions that need two views  - a reason and an emotion. At some instances, we are in a fix because we are unsure about whether reason or emotion is the right way out of the problem.

I have often been told that I should think more rationally. According to people, I am someone who bases most of my decisions on emotions rather than reason. It takes me an effort to find reasons and nothing to find emotions that are reflected or affected by a certain decision.

As I am planning to pursue Business and Management later in my life, it is very important for me to start learning the art of making ‘reason’ decisions.

They often say, that in terms of business, the mind must always rule over the heart. I believe that this is little difficult because if the mind rules it may make decisions that will hurt the hearts of others who are being affected by this ‘reason’ decision. If we are supposed to take a decision regarding what kind of an investment to choose for your business, you cannot base it on emotions like ‘it is good for the people of the investing company; it is my cousins – he needs help’. It needs to be thought of with reason – why this company, what benefits will we gain, etc.

However, sometimes we start thinking more emotionally, like I do. Certain problems like those in schools (peer pressure) would lead people into taking more emotional decision.

A clear example of an emotion misleading us would be those cases of jealousy, hatred and fear. In school, for example, due to bullying or ‘teenage love’ problems, students take huge leaps. The peer pressure cannot be handled. Instead of finding a reason and a way to challenge, people may take threatening decision – suicide, for example. At these moments, we realise that emotions can lead us into doing something highly threatening.

Similarly, in the business case, if we think emotionally and invest into a friend or relative’s firm, knowing that there is not much scope, we are hurting ourself economically. This could later lead to many miscalculations and financial difficulties.

The emotion of jealousy can tear the best of friendships, apart. Instead of reasoning or thinking whether your friend is doing something deliberately, if in case of getting much better marks (naturally or hard work), we often tend to get jealous. This jealousy leads to us to spoiling the lives of these friends.

If these emotions are not controlled, they can lead to many disastrous situations where a person looses the sense to think with a reason as suggested by  Damasio. When emotions take over, they can lead us to take better decisions or they can mislead us into taking decisions that can have a worse long term effect.

The long-term effect is not only caused by the emotion but also by other people, the outside world. For example, if we are angry with a best friend of ours and another person who is possibly jealous of our friendship, will try and enforce the wrong feelings of vengeance into us, which can lead us to do something that would cause further hatred between our friend and us. The other friend, being nice, could also try and solve the matter by making us think about the beautiful moments spent with the best friend – emotional. That would lead us to realise our mistake, feel ashamed.

So yes, other people can lead us to experience feelings that we have never realised. Many times it is our parents or family members that make us feel better in times of depression. They change our moods and leave feeling a different emotion altogether. 

My profile as a knower

My profile as a knower

I always feel that there are two or more sides of everything. It can be the smallest thing like meaning behind a name or a widely discussed topic like feminism.

I often have very strong feelings about the likes and dislikes of the society. Often, before taking a major step I wonder about what the society would think of me. I agree with some of the rituals and beliefs, while feel irritated and agitated by others.

Something that angers me the most is the rights of the women of the society. Sometimes I wonder, are there any rights??
In my homeland, India, there are so many customs that I hate with all my heart. In villages, women are not allowed to work. They are not allowed to eat before men. They are not allowed to cook food or touch anything (live separate) during their menstrual cycles because they are considered impure.
In arab countries, the conditions are even worse. Women should walk a metre or few away from their husbands. They are not allowed to show themselves to the public. They should not sing or dance. It is not fair. However, according to them, these customs have stayed for years and they do not find a fault in them. I love a book called The Thousand Splendid Suns. It is about Mariam, who lives through all these hardships in a Taliban-Afghanistan. It is based on all these issues. In English Literature, we are reading a book called Persepolis, that too talks about the problems of freedom faced by a girl/lady/woman.
I read such genres because I feel I can empathise or even sympathize at times. The practices of dowry and sati in India are ruthless. Dowry - the bride's parents pay huge sums of amount to the groom's side and if they fail to then the bride is horribly tortured. Sati - a widow is burnt with her husband's pyre. The living space of women is hence taken - snatched forever. These things often leave me thinking. Will women, ever revolt? Or will we be forever subdued and treated like outcasts in certain parts or races of the world?  I do not have the answer to that and I don't know when I will have the answer. But, I hope that these women will Prove to the world, what their worth is.

There was a discussion in class about how some people don't approve of others of leaving their homeland. I have had such an issue in my life. During one of our trips to India, one of my father's friend started telling us that it is not good for you to live like this, away from your country. You are betraying your own country and your parents by leaving them alone at this age. It really angered me because they really do not know what it feels like to stay away from your country and your parents. It is not by choice that we decided to move. It was because there was a job opportunity and a person needs to make a living out of a job. I realised that if he could tell this and there will be more people. But these people have no idea what it feels like to live like this. No one would want to stay away. There is always a difference between need and want. There is a difference between our mindset, living urban, and their mindset - living rural. Even while they are living in an advanced city there are thoughts and mindsets are still rural. They do not acknowledge the fact that we are efficiently taking care of our homes in two places - the place where we live and our country.

We, as teenagers, have a lot to debate about. Right now our knowledge is limited to what we want to learn. Often we feel that time will make us learn certain things. We do not take an extra effort or an initiative to learn something except for what is being taught already. Our music, social networking keeps us engrossed into ourselves that we forget the rest of the world.
There are arguments at home regarding our behavior. Mostly, our parents are right but we don't want to accept those facts and sometimes we are right but they don't want to accept that fact. They often tell us things that we should know and follow as we pass through our teens but react to certain other things that they would not have done in the teenage hood. At those times, I feel that they should realise that there is always a generation gap and we have to accept the changes of the generation. I am quite lucky that my parents understand all the hormonal, mental - physical changes in me and accept them. There are times they don't. There are times I react badly. but I guess time will heal all these wounds and bring better worldly knowledge to us.

These are just few of those big topics that are a part of our life and which we learn from.

Critical Thinking

Lesson 1

We learnt about Critical Thinking.

Critical thinking, basically, means to analyse a topic and gain different perspectives on it. Critical thinking is about questioning yourself and not believe what is being shown or said and to give in.

We discussed the different ways or areas in life where thinking critically would become important. I felt that Media is one element that should be definitely put to critical thinking. Because we discussed examples of commercials during tv show breaks where things targeted on a specific people are advertised, making those targeted audience wanting to buy these products. If we discuss this and think critically, then probably there would be less spending.
Another important part was the News. We always believe whatever we read or see in the news. Most of the times we form our opinions due to the news channel or the newspapers. If we just believe them and not think critically, we are damaging our ability to form a correct opinion.

Hence, I think that it was a great topic to discuss. I also felt that it will help me with my further studies as I realise (little by little) that questioning is a very important aspect while learning.

The answering of those few questions in class was particularly interesting, because while writing the answers I felt that I was being challenged to find the answer of some questions that I have really never asked myself.

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